For the past month since returning from my trip to Italy, where I indulged heavily in wine, cheese, pasta, and prosciutto, I’ve been on a major detox to reset my physical, mental, chemical, and spiritual body. Eating clean is an important part of the mediumship work I do because I need to be a clean conduit to make a spiritual connection. So as soon as I returned from vacation, I jumped back into my familiar and more disciplined routine of cutting out the gluten, sugar, dairy, and alcohol to lighten my energy and allow for heightened clarity.
I was back on track. Feeling good. And then last night happened.
Last night was one of those nights where I abandoned all self-discipline after the first bite. I attended a benefit event in Los Angeles with good friends. From the moment I stepped onto the red carpet and had my Hollywood “moment,” I decided to enjoy the experience to the fullest. This meant eating and drinking whatever I wanted all night long! Heavy and decadent foods like steak, lobster mac n’ cheese, endless desserts, and of course, lots of wine.
Every Day is a Gift
I enjoyed myself fully, but when I woke up this morning, I knew I was going to pay for my indulgence. My stomach was in knots from the excessive gluten and dairy, and my mind started to swirl with food guilt. Ugh, why had I put all that toxic stuff into my system again after working so hard to just clean it out? I spent the next few hours saying really mean things to myself. When I finally became sick and tired of feeling sick and tired, I decided to pray and meditate. It hit me that there was a profound lesson in this experience for me, along with a great reminder from the higher ups on the Other Side who tell me— Every day is a gift to be in a body.
Love it and enjoy it while you have it. Really. I can’t tell you how often spirits express their longing to be in a body. Whatever the shape or size. And they voice their frustration that we’re missing the point of having a body altogether, which is to be a vehicle for our soul as it awakens throughout our lifetime. Furthermore, spirits pass on that part of the fun of having a body is indulging it from time to time. This is what being alive and living fully and freely in the flesh is all about!
Sink Into Gratitude
Remembering this, I then laughed out loud when I realized that the blog topic for today was based on the chapter “Release Your Spiritual Weight” from my latest book What the Dead Have Taught Me About Living Well. Ironic, yes. Coincidence, no. My guides knew exactly what they were doing when they nudged me to indulge all night long. My weight issues were, once again, brought to the surface as another healing opportunity for me and to share my story with you. If by revealing my on-going struggle with body image helps you, then my late-night trip to the Sprinkles Cupcake truck was well worth it.
For those of you who have followed my journey, you know that my struggle with emotional eating and self-medicating with food brought me to my personal breaking point and spiritual awakening over twenty years ago. It was in that dark moment when my grandmother reached out from Other Side and encouraged me to stop punishing myself and start loving myself. Grandma Babe showed me a way out and whenever I feel those old feelings of self-loathing, guilt, and shame around food, I’m reminded of how desperate I’d felt and how far I’ve come. Still today, I sometimes need a little help shifting my perspective from self-criticism to self-love. I closed my eyes and asked my guides: Please free me from this lifelong struggle and destructive cycle. Help me shift my negative, fearful thoughts to love, compassion and gratitude for my body.
After praying and meditating for a few minutes and repeating the mantra—I have a body, I am a soul, and I am grateful for this life—I felt better. Still a little hung-over and chemically ‘off’, but free from that low energy place. I’d finally gotten out of my head and into my heart. With renewed clarity, I thanked God, my guides, and the universe for the amazing time I’d had at the benefit event. So I’d binged the night away. Big deal! The question was: did I have fun? The answer is… BEYOND! Tomorrow I’ll get back to my routine of clean living, but today, I’m going to sink into gratitude for one more day in this body and leave it at that.
You Try It! Shift to Health
What the spirits have taught me is that it’s not about what size you are that matters, but how you feel that counts. We waste too much time and energy on our weight when our focus should be on health and how we feel in our bodies. When we feel good, it’s easier to connect with and be our best selves. So ask your guides to help you clarify what “healthy” is for you. Ask: what do I need to do to align with my higher self? Remember, there’s no one-size-fits-all, so really tune into what foods, substances, exercise, and activities make you feel your best. When you feel your best, you elevate your energy and energize your life!
Want More Inspiration and Insight?
In my latest book, What The Dead Have Taught Me About Living Well (Link to bit.ly/LivingWellRR), I share more about making the shift from self-sabotage to self-love. If you, like me, have a story about feeling trapped in your body and making the shift from physically heavy to spiritually free, I invite you to share it in the comments below. And if you feel guided to share my story with a friend or loved one who may be served by this message, please pass it along!
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